Day 9

Evening all, (Spoiler alert: a slightly more positive blog tonight) Again swelling down and talking is becomjng easier every day. Im drooling a lot less (i even left the house without tissues today) and movement in my jaw is increasing daily. The mouth opening exercises feel weird but hopefully are doing some good. I feel less miserable today (mostly thanks to Jake) and have tried to not think about how skinny i am - i have now accepted that this is fixable and a long,not short,term goal. Jake and I tried to go to the cinema in the evening (hindsight not a good idea as this is generally when im in most pain) and made it as far as as the car park but my jaw was too sore. I had crazy pins and needles all over my face. I knew I wouldnt have been able to concentrate on the film so we just came home (following many tears and “Im sorry”s).Do we get points for trying? My pain at night was much less severe tonight and I managed with just codeine,paracetamol and my heat pack. It still took quite a long time to fall asleep (getting comfy is becoming a real issue) but once I did I was out for the count and managed a solid 9 hours. I also had fewer headaches during the day. My mouth bleeding is getting slightly worse every time I brush my teeth. Its still not scarily bleeding but definitely worse. I cant quite tell where its coming from but I don't think its because im knocking a stitch. The only other thing is Im becoming quite self conscious that my top lip has shrunk quite a lot during the surgery. It probably just looks that way because that of my face is quite swollen but im a bit scared that its not going to come back and ill be lipless forever - it doesnt help that my bottom lip is slightly bigger at the moment. Its not a huge deal and hopefully it will sort itself in time but its just something im becoming more aware of. Anyway,in general im feeling a lot better about life today despite the cinema blip - hey at least i tried to get out the house!